I lost my spark

I suppose I lost my spark at some point over the past three or four months. Before today, I was having trouble understanding what felt off and why only recently I realized I need to start doing things that are more fulfilling.

My day to day isn't working for me. I feel in a rut, like I am stuck in a cycle that I can't get out of. While I have known for awhile that I've been on my phone too much, relying on brain numbing content, sitting around, not focusing on hobbies, I still couldn't get myself to stop doing those things. I think I finally reached a point where I mentally couldn't handle that way of living anymore. Honestly, thank god. I am so glad I have finally gotten to this point, cause despite knowing better, I couldn't get myself to get out of the rut. Finally, I have no choice but to crawl out of whatever hole I've been digging, cause I simply cannot dig anymore.

I have decided that I am gonna write down everything I would rather be doing with my time instead of continuing the draining and unfulfilling habits I have created. After writing down everything I would rather be doing, I am going to pick out some of those things that make me feel the most excited, and that feel realistic, and figure out where I can work them into my schedule. Then, I am going to make a schedule for myself that includes these activities, and a rough routine for me to follow on a day to day basis. If I have a schedule that I am trying to stick to, I think I actually have a chance at getting out of this rut. Especially if the things I have scheduled for myself are something good to look forward to.

I actually feel inspirede and excited about this idea. It's almost like I can feel the spark on the brink of lighting. And that feeling is SO good. I cannot wait to have my spark, my feeling of passion, worked back into my everyday life.